My friend Lorna is going to be starting to work on my portrait again soon. It’s a nude – which poses me with a number of questions. The pose we used before was far too passive, so we need to think about that. The question that I’ve been pondering this evening, is whether I wear my glasses or not.
On the one hand, it would look more natural and be more intimate without them. On the other, they are so much part of me.
They are the first thing I put on in the morning and the last thing I take off at night. I’ve worn them since I was 10 years old, when I lost my right eye in an accident.
Yes – I do hide behind them.
Without them ,my false eye, and the scars on my right cheek ,from a car accident, are more visible. I am truely naked.
And I realised this evening, taking these photographs – that I NEVER see myself without glasses. The woman is a stranger.
This leads to the question of who this portrait is for. A. commissioned it, but Lorna says that she’s painting it for me. I want Lorna to paint me as she sees me, not to please, or be a nice, pretty painting.
So I guess the glasses question is down to Lorna. It would be interesting to know how other glasses wearers feel.